PLEASE READ THESE TERMS: Tuesday, October 31, 2006Y
8:08 AM
hah ha ha NICE(:today was super nice(: man. hahah this in the super early morning till late at night it was jus all super(: hahahah
-if ure talking to me this is my answer.-
my ans: hahha im not.i only treat him as a cool friend,n i only want the best fer all my friends. please dont misunderstand, n the best for him is to make him happy which is by being with u. hahah im fine with it. as long as hes happy with u. cause hes ures. please treat him weLL, n dont break his heart cause i wouldnt want him to be sad): haha so i really hope u both have a long nice relationship cause as i said i only wish fer the best fer all my friends hahah. jus promise me that u would make my cool friend happy(: hahah so peace fer now.hahha. oh , n this is not any sort of hate letter wadever . dont misunderstand.i jus wanna get this clear with ya. oh n lastly good luck feryer exams yea? hah ha do good n make ur mum proud. hah ha
hmmm..night(: everyone hahah letmme dance hahaha
Monday, October 30, 2006Y
3:10 AM
i feel that everything i do is Wrong.some1 please save me from this MiserY.
-unhappy friends,unhappy family....i cant take it anymore.when i try to help, i jus make scars. everything i do feels like it burns.i hate it.but where did i go wrong?
-u dont need me anymore? FINE.
-i didnt believe my friends about u.so i tried to help u become i better person.if u dont heed my advice, u will stay ur fucking self.all i did was try to help.n now u blame me? for something i didnt even do? THEY ARE RIGHT, U ARE HOPELESS.i dun wanna bother over u anymore,its just a waste of my time.
-now i understand.
-& i wont cry over spilt milk.
Sunday, October 29, 2006Y
7:21 AM
AN INSANE RECOUNThah ha yastadae was lyke WOWOW! let me start this fuking insane TRUE crazy story of ma life. hahah
-she started shouting,complaining n nagging lyke she always did, except this time she started raising her voice.
-inside of mw burned, i could not take it anymore. so i shouted bac n stood up to ma own mumther dearest.
"i hate u! i wish i had a different mother! u suck! y do i have to be SO SPECAIL n different frm the rest of my friends?!"
-"then y dun u jus runaway?"
i ran into my room n slammed the door shut,with quickly locking it.my mom came after n banged my door, "MELINA! OPEN THIS DOOR NOW!!!!" she demanded""NO!!!"" i screamed.""IF U LEAVE URE ROOM, ITS MINE" she said. left in my room,crying, depressed n sooo doowwwnnn.wad the hell was i supposed to do? i alr made plans to go out today.with my good friend n another specail person.fcuk.i didnt noe what to do.then i decided.i didnt care anymore.i couldnt live n bare with all the fcuked up shit anymore.at tt moment i could feelL anymore.all i felt was pain n hurt.i whipped my phone n started finding comfort frm 3 of my great friends(: zad told me to meet him at dawson so i quickly changed grabed ma stuff in a bag, n i was about to jump outta my window onto the ground (my house is on the 2nd floor) when i realised i had no shoes man.GOD! Y DO MY shoes have to be in the living room? fine so i quickkly sneeked out of the house, when i grabed my shoes my sis spotted me.can i jus say tt i love my sis? (: hah ha she asked me where i was going.so i said :"mom asked me to runaway? so fine." then i left to the world . went to meet up wif zad n he made me feel betta(: hahah thanks zad! thankz a lot! hahah so we were in dawson fer lyk till 3.30 den we decided that we wanted to go far east as he wante to see some bapesters hahah stupid shoes! so ex. yet quite stylo i have to say!!! hahah..ohh but while leaving dawson my cool friend texted tt he could not make it.so i was sad, hell yea.hahha but nvm.
-so me n zad went ard far east fer like super long till 6. liddat hahha so the my cool fren called zad telling callin him to meet at plaza sing at 7.30-n i was happy but wait 1st.7.30 wow i thought tts late man.but then again, im alr in shit by sneeking outta the house so might as well get into seeper shit right? hahah so after tt zad went round taking pics with halloween ppl hahah it was funny man! hahaha okkk then went to plaza sing n messed at a shopping centre thingy then ya then went to go buy some ice cream frm "the icecream man" hahha kk thne went taxi stand loads off peepz there then zad started dancing man! hahahah kk. then met up with (: then went to go decide whad to buy,to make up wif.ya ya so we looked around everywhere n finally found this nice hmmm....cake? haha kk.ya then it was like 8.50pm thenzad felt tt he wanted some cheese.n i was like whad the? haha then we went to the top floor to buy some cheese then went outta plaza sing.hah ha then (: had some time to spare so they both sent me to the bus stop then yea i went home. then haha the crazy part...
-went to the 2nd story staircase.called over the railing my sis's name.then she came to her balcony.wait.1st let me praise this brillant plan i came up with in a second. so i told her to throw me a towel n my swimsuit. so i went downstairs at the toilet to change into my swimsuit n took all my clothes n packed it into my bag then i went back up to the staircase n threw my clothes over to my sis. then i tried to throw my bag over to her but waittt hmmm... it was to heavy. so she went back into her room n cam out wif a rope-made outta her gothic chains n spikes n belts all linked together then she lowered in down i attached my bag to in n she pulled it back up.vaw la! a perfect plan.since my mom thought i was still sleeping the whole while. so i got wet into the swimming pool n went bac into the house my mom saw me it was like 10.30 but this was normal cause i usaully go swimming late.hahahah i got away with the whole day(: amazing huh? hahahah
what a day.
sadness n greif can be cured,
by comfort frm ur frineds,
they are always there,
treasure them(:
Thursday, October 26, 2006Y
9:24 PM
THE FREAKING LAST DAY!!!!!!!! -went to school on graudation day n stayed there fer 6 hours+ man!!! ma GOD!!!!!! ARGH!!!! the last day of the sec 4's n 5's!!!!!!! im SSOOOOO gonna miss them cause the sec 3's next this year who r gonna take over the school all i can say is -"there proud asses will get kicked some day"-i hope hah ha jkjkjkjkjkjkjk hah ha hey!!!! im so left distorted man.... im gonna greif lyke everyday!!! ARRGGGHHHH im sSSSSOOO sad,,...bye everybody,,....my friends and super-cool great friends... all i do is wish u all the best whether ya going JC, POLY er ITE... im gonna miss ya all sooo much!!! n best of luck fer all ure dancing (: u noe who u r (: hah ha but hey!!! hopefully will still keep in touch yea? hah ha ha ha if only we could see u all in sec 5 (: hah ha ha dreams usually fail hah ah ha but hey!!! should look onda bright side of life (: hah ha . see u in the esplanade hah ha need help on next years talentime!!! too kickass hah ha wif both of ure help (: hah ha thankz (: we will miss u guys (: nhopedulikedit(:
Tuesday, October 24, 2006Y
4:12 AM
COOLFRIENDZ(: -hah ha nice(: hah ha. feeling loads betta hah ha;cause of some reasons hah ha weLL, this is the last week of the sec 4's staying.MY GOD!!! so many people are so sad ): hah ha weLL fer me i have my mixed feelings. as some of the sec 4's are my friends! and they will be leaving!!! ): im so sad !!! hah ha - whawhawha better go practice fer the competti.omg hah ha so scary...whawhawha where ta practice?-
esplanade?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....
sheren HHHHHHOOOOOOWWWWWW????-hah ha
sometimes fate is in my hands,
only for me to control it,
it only depends whether i can handle the on coming,
as it is a very powerful item,
weLL,
i can't.
HOW COULD I? have burned paradise?
HOW COULD I? u were never mine.
So don't cry to me.If you loved me,You would be here with me.Don't lie to me,Just get your things.I've made up your mind.
Saturday, October 21, 2006Y
8:56 AM
FEELING BETTA(:-theres light in the world agian(:knowing that talentime is a bumber fer us , i dun giva shit anymore(: cause i know that we are better (: instead lets tryta find a semi-compettion outta school fer the heck of it! hah ha ha . should gain more experirence man!!! oh whad olso made me feel more cheery was some of izzad's music man! ha ha ha . NICE(: zad , real nice (:
hah ha-[Mel] (;
Friday, October 20, 2006Y
3:15 AM
hope is jus a minor thing in the world only knowing that it will be crushed by the biggest impact, cause it is usually linked to love. which god usually never gives u a chance to impress
i would give up my 2nd position in class and drop to the 15th to have this, or get it. worked our asses off......forrrwhhhaaaaaddddddd ??? for nothing- nothing at aalll.... i just guess were no t good enough.... maybe ours was horrible? did the moves suck? how did we look? we messed it up- everything. loss . they got it. no hope. tired everything. it has to pass. i cant bear it. the last year here. i wanted to do something specail. something to impress to be blown away. i just guess maybe not. maybe we actually sucked, down to everything. we can never beat them, whad the hell were we thinking huh ??? bloddy assholeing hopes.... they get high only knowing that they would be crushed. and u would know that u actually failed-left out in the dark. everything, done. the only chance to prove everything to turn it int o right. i guess it jus was so wrong. right from the start. i hate it. i dunno whad to do. theee laasssttt year..... did we really crump? hah ha- i cant smile, it just seems lyk a crimeee....n worse, the whole dam bloddy school knows about it..... every1 coming up to our crewmates...asking..."i heard u didnt make it..." then how? now everybody is gonna think our dance is going to be worse than that shit.
-embarrassed
-feeling down
-totally pathetic
-not worth my time
-ashamed
-FAILure........
so from all this it definately has taught me a lesson...
it doesnt matter how much effort u put in,
people are never satified,
there is no hope in this world,
nothing ever works out,
we never win,
no matter how hard,
we never,
FAILure is immpossible to beat.
u never can escape it...
so y even try???....
Wednesday, October 18, 2006Y
2:58 AM
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we totally screwed up!!!! whad could be worse? we cramped and forgott lots of moves n timing all diff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE FLUNKED.FAILED.ITSOVER.EVERYTHING.allthehardwork.allthepain.allthecreativity.WASTED.sowasted. it was so scary like the judges were aAAAAAAAAAAAAAA:LLLLLLLLLLLLl ard us!!!!!!! reason that we could screw up!!!!!!!1 fuck lah!!!! when i totally forgot to do THIS move i said "fuck" OMG!!!! i said it twice on the dancefloor infront of the judges!!!! n we had no cd no costume n most important, NO ENERGY. we already wiped oursleves out like shit.heehee. den when they asked us for a name, thought of it on the spot n suddenly said "mixed blood" HOLY CRAP! fcuk lahhhhhhhhhhhhhh whad to do? so many brillant moves wasted............ sommore its .lyk.....nvm.............................AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHH!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but at least we made new friends n had loads of fun(:
Monday, October 16, 2006Y
8:49 AM
wha wha wha !!! talentime is on wed n we are not even 1 thrid through the dance!!! we have one last day to practice for the audi n that is tmr!!!! ahhhhh heeeellllppppp!!!! 2/3 the dance in a single day? with perfect timing n moves done correctly? even time n skill to "dress" ? n "impress" ? I duNO!! im gonna go crazy!!!! i really want this, but is it possible? we shall prove the "otherz" hah ha i think ONE of my friend noes what im talking bout, :that we r better! that this years sec 1 batch is super stylo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, October 14, 2006Y
8:13 AM
12 sraight hours of dancing!!!! OMGGG my body is like jelly liddat!!! OWWW!!!! hah ha but its worth it! hhah hasigning off - MeL
Thursday, October 12, 2006Y
3:16 AM
hey hey hey!!! hyeeee .... ;;;; t6oda9 n ya5t3rday ??? lots of dramaaa mannnnnn.... ohhhh goddddd i had a kinda huge fight wif my mommmmmm whooaaaa whawhawha i didnt lyk it ; lotsa drama n tears shed by meee whoawhoawhoa, until i say until my mom dunno whad to say untill she queit ... y??? ... cause she kkinda guilltyyyy of whad i said .. ok ok i dun wanna say bout the fight anymore cause it was bad n i dun wanna relive the moment by saying it.ok sooo whad to write??? ok today was ok i guess. valley(hah ha! valley!!!), sherry n me went 2 watch this movie called "Rob-b-Hood" hah ha! funny sia! den sheren wasted my hp $$$!!!! by sms-ing who??? of caus....who else??? hah ha. kkyes im bored..... nothing to do wha.....borreeeeddddd do u ppl know tt i hate to be bored??? haaaaahhhghh...cnt i really dont lyk it....oh ya one more thing, if u dont think i noe, WELL,
I DO.
FEEL HAPPY,(:
FEEL SAD,):
WATEVER YOU DO,
JUST DONT CRACK-
tresure ur family n friends,
they are all u got.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006Y
8:51 AM
hhhhyyyyyyyyeeeeeee people!!!! (: finally exams are over..... my god...... art exam today was killer!!!!! wowow i felt sick to my stomach during the exam cause i was very very nervous that i would not have enough time to complete my artwork; which was a dragon! hah ha. last night i was up till 3.30 am late trying to finish my art! sheren was with me at my house we both did our art together, den we all do our art untill we both cry cause we dont wanna do anymore hahha jus too tired already n wan 2 sleep also cannot. ): so busy yesterday go home do art untill late den no time to practice dance): wtf man i was lyk ........its such a waste of time n i didnt even wanna go to school today cause i knew that therr was nothing to look forward to in school ): espeically my good friend (: who buys iceappleteas(: hah ha. wha wha wha myass dam pain from dance class wha wha wha...ouch* hah ha. trying to learn new moves. hah ha yeasterdae dance class den she,me n val we all lyk ring to doorbell to da studio den we wait there dam long also no answer den we realised that we were at the back door!!! whad losers rite??? hah ha. but there was this like great small swimming pool ther tt looked cool (: we wanted to go swimming! were planning too! hah ha our plans tmr wild wild wet cancelled!!! cause its under repair!!! wha so sad ): at least now exams are over!!!! got time to practice DANCE!!!! so happy!!!! (: hah ha . so sad this whole week hes not coming to school !!!! im so sad!!!! ): hope his indo night goes well (: today is dam whad aaee!!! i dont lyk aee!!! hah ha- anyway after exam after school we took about 2 murdering hours to decide where we wanted to go.maybe to VIVO maybe to WESTCOAST maybe to BOWLINg or SWIMMING or KAP. we were lyk wtf man we were soooo bored!!! then in the end we decided to stay in school. hah ha... den we the crew was hungry. den we took 30mins to decide whad to eat-maybe PIZZA mayb KFC mayb MAC ;ordering in school. den in the end we decided to eat in school! hah ha we are such losers hah ha i wanted to cry i was so bored hah ha! i was telling valley that 1 week before exams i was not panicked at all den during exams i didnt give a shit i treated it as any normal day it didnt feel lyl exams still havnt panicked yet, den now Aafer exams i panick so much!!! cause i was so bored n got nothing to do!!! hah ha so i panicked!!! hah ha.she argree with me. hah ha
time to stop,
relax,
n get up n dance!!!
hah ha- enjoy ur lyfe, u got it n its ures, take it easy n luv ur loves!
LOVINEVERYSECONDOFTHATSIGHT(:
Friday, October 06, 2006Y
3:44 AM
TOday was lyk so great man! okie let me start frm the beginning dudes.okkk i woke up~ hahahaha! not so beginning ah! ok i was aa bit late fer school den today got math paper 2 wha sianz man i dam freaking scared ah, cause if i dun get 40+ fer this paper 2 i noe that i sure fail maths already... n i was lyk holy SHxIT cause i now i no hope already gooddd!!! but i tell u the paper was lyk dayym freaking easy! to my wonderfull surpprise!!! then i was looking round the canteen but to no avail ): he no paper today!!! -a fren told me! )))::: i was so saddd): NVM!today was so fun! to kill time we all went bugis den thinking what ta buy fer the dance especically serching for tt hat! (: tt B-E-T-FULL! hat!!! n den we all go watch movie! double date sia- hah ha ! exceapt for me n sheren so extra ! hah ha! but so fun! neverless we all were laughing our asses off when the crew go watched the movie "SUCOB"-the wedding curse-tt moive totally sucked dudes! dun watch it! (: hah ha ok ok i got some pics for u alll! hah ha! enjoy!!! hahaha!!! wowow!!! vally n tj sitting in a movie-H-O-L-D-I-N-G H-A-N-D-S~first comes marriage-----wadeva shixxit lah!!! hah ha ---sooo shhhheeeewwwttttt!!!
hahahaha! me n sherrys feets on the cinema chairs dude!!! hah ha we re clapping them!! hahaha!
oh tis was me and the clothes model in bugis!! its hand gesture was "fcuk u man"-so evill..tsk*tsk* oh i was laughing my ass offf when i saw tt !! haha ha
oh the super STYLO bus i went in man1!!! it was so cool!!!
oh n finnalllly!!!! this is MY APPLE TEA(: which won 1st place!!! in a u could say compettion on which smily laughing face was nicer i had with a good fren(: on msn ! this pic won it!
the super STYLO 165 bus man!!! double decker sommore u know!!??
oh one more thing when thatr happened today that almost made me vomit
!!!!! the crew was lytk on the bus to bugis then there wwass this guyyyyy.. who was like kkinda super fat.n guess what???????
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..
....
......
.........-he farted!
IT B LEW US AWAY~~~~!!! GAWDD!!!! IT WAS THE SMELLYIEST THING EVER!!! we all were suffercateing!!!!! n val took out her deoderant n was lykk s[raying it all over the bus!! i mean eEEEEEWWWWW!!!! i=thats disgusting!!!! n sheren was lyk the closest one to that "EEEWWW guy" and she was lyk " please god dun let him fart againn......" and guuessss what happennneed....
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................we all heard an " OH SHIT" frm sheren n we all knew whatg wwass coming n ran outta the bus! hahahahhahahahahhahahaa
AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHH WOWOWOW HAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA? it was the funnesit day MAN!!!! AHHAHAHAHAZAHAHA i cant stop laughing!!! HAHAHAHAH----
signing off - mel(exam almost over!! WOO~!!!)
Tuesday, October 03, 2006Y
2:35 AM
TODAY~SHITMAN! u all noe that the math paper today was lyk WOWOW! i could do it man! seriously! i left lyk a totally 8 QUEASTIONS BLANK DUDE! surefail math sia.....die.oh but the science paper today was also lyk WOWOW as i could do everything man! it was lyk so dam easy i could have jus stared n laughed! hah ha ha ha hah ha ha hah -except for 1 chem q the perodick[hah ha! dick! hah ha! i noe val u luv it man!] table i totally fergot! ahhh nvm.but the rest of the paper was a breezzzzz. oh i jus heard something dam fuking shocking today i swear i could hav...aeee nvm (: hah ha. ok so it was lkyk i was doing smt than [THIS PERSON] jus laughed man! lyk this person has any right to laugh!!! comooooonn she lyk kinnda worse than me n this person laughs! lyk shit. fuuuuuuukkkcccaaaaa aiya nvm.hah ha!okie this morening i felt lykl missing the 186 bus. so idid. than i took another 2 buses tt made me almost late fer school n guess who i sawww!!!!!!! happy man!me! but i said hi he never see then his best friend saw den say but i gone already. then during the 1 HOUR! break! when every1 else go up already cause de paper starting olready...i still downstairs sia. then he said hi!!! WOWOW that made my day (: butttttttt thhhannnn. i said hi back than i forced myself to tear my gaze away...started running cause late fer paper already ... then i slliiippppppeedddd i [fell] n sssslliiiiddeeeeeeeedddddddddd/ fukka sia. i fell*! RIGHT infront of sommebodyyy...!!!!! arrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh soooooooooooooooooooo {PAI SEH!}ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!-today was a dam fukkking bitch of a day! hahah! but a good one as welLL(:
WELL!!! OFF TO DANCE Again! CAUSEW\ I GOT MOTIVATION BABY!
-he not joining talentime already):
not giving up, not looking away,n jus stayin friends.(: is enough.
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U are the finest guy in my eyes. i already said a countless of sorrysnimstillsosorry.buutttimsogladwerefriends!!!!!(:nthatmakemedamfukkkainhappy(:
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