PLEASE READ THESE TERMS:
FACT/HINT:
u open ur mouth too fast nowindays. please shut it?
OPINON:
u both are perfect for each other..u do not need me..i often feel like...even tho pleople say i ya,my appreciation n thanks to them.but beside u both i feel...just depleated...of everything.. with a sprawling mind of thoughts as well.
WELL! OFF TO THAILAND NOW!
[sewadika(:]
M3L;(:
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how i WILL of the intoxicating warmth and soft fluffy comfort of my bed!!! aiiii... what an impossible feat...i wish sleep could overcome me until tmr begins and i'll wake up into another dream of a nightmare....aiiiiiiiii......lucky exams are finish and over! i feel like m drifting in and out, in an out...sleeping entering a peacefull slumber then only waking up to find horror again. what is that man? gooosshhhhh....
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too let u know.if i didnt care about u, or have any feelings at all,n just be a heartless bitch, y do u think i even let these painfull tears crawl on my pillow at night? if i didnt give a heck,wait.WHO do u even think stayed with u for hours n hours trying to console u on ur problems? all those times, at the busstop.i could have just left u crying.did u ever think y i would do that? same as u of course.just trying to be a perfect friend.somehow i see it as u do not heed my hours of advice smts.only those more experienced say a word or two n u heed theirs.its obvissous,u smts say so urself.this is one of the matters i do not understand as well. even thou i was terribly bothered by it,i was still by urside. so ask me y.
Well,if they are enough for u.[no offense S & S, u two are great ppl!] go ahead be happy again.i know u saw me, in the bus, letting them cascade down my cheeks.i wonder how u felt bout that.i dunnoe.well, anyway, i really really thought u would last, i reallyreally liked u,val , i loved u as a friend.I'LL let u know this though.,
half of me wants to embrace u and say sorry.
another half wants to glare at u and stalk off.
i've been controlling my sides to even out.
ur reasons for going with them are all explainable, i understand totally.but other matters, are .....just unexplainable and i do not want to mention them. i do not want to stir up more than there already is. im just confused.the only thing is to prove it.n know this as well, we are not gullible ppl, u think we would fall for the crap most of the time he gives? NO. we'll not.n i know u know that.were smart people. if we make any decisions it is with a hell lot of great care and thought, considering every possiblity.n seeing proof of every angle ourselves. so i shall mention again, i do not want to explain more then whatever there is uncovered already. im not sure u heard everything that bloody traitor said.so now, i let u wonder, y would we do any of this? figure out urself. but be wise val, think of everything,take a night off to wonder what were affected by, and how we feel. n U more than anyone else shuld know we hate too lose friends.anyway, all that time, do u think we would throw it away for nothing?
but we'll always love u as a friend,even if u walked out.
what u heard was wrong, i do not hate u.
just dissapointed.in him.n u.
some things are ridiculous but we heck it.
but all the small things add up,too bigger ones.
n im sick of everything, i just wish i could forget this knowlegde of this matter in my head, but i've pushed it away,just too long.
we'll always be there for u,for ur info,feel free to come to us for advice, we ask for nothing in return, just wishfull thinking. please val,think about it, i beg of u.i know nobody is perfect and this is all too fast but u have to go thru these problems one day no doubt. it will give experience u know that. so i guess...its now.for our bad year,bad month, . the f*cking rooster.it pains be dearly to lose the closest sec school friend too me as well...[sheren's a p'sch friend!] ....i weep for my loss dearly.untill there r no more tears.u noe me , i'll always reassure myself that "its not worth crying over mel,its just not worth it" but im dead wrong.it does not help me.anyways,whats there to gain from a loss? emptyness? no thats not it...
so night.
[P.S. ur D&G one? is'nt that the black and gold one that faroza also has? if it is then yah,u did wear it to school b4 n told quite a lot of ppl i rmb vividly.but that matter does not bother me ,unlike him.] (i think)
my luvff 4 yah has gone dorment.
so its old news.
ill leave it behind now.
one night.one more time.
well thnks fr the mmrs.
even tho some of them were breaking.
thanks.
well some ppl r gonna get happy.
dun get ur hopes up.
m staying the way i m.
& JUST ANOTHER THING.
whats wrong wif u.
u bitch.
i dun wanna play along.
i refuse to go n fake.i know u love that.
u take every opportunity.
dont yah bitch.
well i let them pass.
even tho i might be more than u.
i know my limits.
n i REFUSE to lose my dignity.
n i dun wana THROW AWAY my pride.
i m aware too not-lose-myself now.
if thats anything i learnt frm that book.
its stupid.
don't make a fool of urself.
u might b pretty if u shut ur mouth.
cause when u open it , u lose ur image.
comgrats.ask urself y.
i would help u.
if u consider me as a friend.
cause u sure do not treat me as one.
to caught up wif ur bitch business.
hahhaha.
sometimes i cant wait to go to canada.
yay here i come.
singapore's not for me.
And please do not be dissmayed or frustrated at trying to descipher at the inquirious words i will will writing. i hope you feel free and dispel all your qualms of the surrounding knowlege of these words i am periloisly typing at my pitfull and disputed blog where people like me , oftenlly sprawl our deepest endearing moments and highly anticipating memories of our dear lives. so i shall begin now, of a simple but intriging recount of my day, at least somewhat.
it started out as noraml...HMM this is boring shit i'll continue smt else but more inster esting yay!
ok...
as the faint whispers of the insects empassing the square entered my ears, i saw a lone figure standing alone................................
ok im tired night!!!