PLEASE READ THESE TERMS: Friday, October 20, 2006Y
3:15 AM
hope is jus a minor thing in the world only knowing that it will be crushed by the biggest impact, cause it is usually linked to love. which god usually never gives u a chance to impress
i would give up my 2nd position in class and drop to the 15th to have this, or get it. worked our asses off......forrrwhhhaaaaaddddddd ??? for nothing- nothing at aalll.... i just guess were no t good enough.... maybe ours was horrible? did the moves suck? how did we look? we messed it up- everything. loss . they got it. no hope. tired everything. it has to pass. i cant bear it. the last year here. i wanted to do something specail. something to impress to be blown away. i just guess maybe not. maybe we actually sucked, down to everything. we can never beat them, whad the hell were we thinking huh ??? bloddy assholeing hopes.... they get high only knowing that they would be crushed. and u would know that u actually failed-left out in the dark. everything, done. the only chance to prove everything to turn it int o right. i guess it jus was so wrong. right from the start. i hate it. i dunno whad to do. theee laasssttt year..... did we really crump? hah ha- i cant smile, it just seems lyk a crimeee....n worse, the whole dam bloddy school knows about it..... every1 coming up to our crewmates...asking..."i heard u didnt make it..." then how? now everybody is gonna think our dance is going to be worse than that shit.
-embarrassed
-feeling down
-totally pathetic
-not worth my time
-ashamed
-FAILure........
so from all this it definately has taught me a lesson...
it doesnt matter how much effort u put in,
people are never satified,
there is no hope in this world,
nothing ever works out,
we never win,
no matter how hard,
we never,
FAILure is immpossible to beat.
u never can escape it...
so y even try???....
